I just recently (on Feb 6, to be exact) passed my one year anniversary for my weight loss journey. Over the past year, I had lost up to 75 pounds.
Unfortunately some of those pounds have found me again. I don't want to say how many, but trust me, it's way more than I ever wanted to come back. 5 lbs up and down, I would have understood. Trust me, this is more than that.
So, now, I know what I should be doing. I have the blue print and I know that it works. I have the tools, the exercises and the books. What I am lacking is the motivation.
I am busy feeling sorry for myself. I am busy thinking about where I want to be, not how I plan to get there. I think of the good things that would happen if I lost another 10, 20, 30 or more pounds. I just don't want to do the work.
I feel crappy, both physically and mentally. The carbs I ingest give me headaches and make me lethargic. The sugar too. The rush I get at the time that I eat, though, seems to overpower much of that.
I have some hurdles to cross and other issues as well. All of those reasons behind and driving the emotional eating. I need to have some conversations, recruit some help and buckle down and get'r done.
So, why am I posting it here? Not sure. One, to talk about it. It's hard to talk about. I feel like a complainer and a whiner. So I don't talk. But here, I'm not talking. I'm typing. And that's allowed.
Two, to hold myself accountable. I need to make changes. I am unhappy with the path I am on, and I need to make myself happy. No one else will do that. No one else SHOULD do it. It's all on me. But until I say it (or in the case, type it) out loud, what remains unspoken can remain hidden. I don't have to act on anything that I haven't made real through expression.
So, I am going to try and put the effort in. I have been going through the motions, but my heart and soul and passion have not been a part of it. I need that to happen. I put these picture in this post to try and show myself how far I have come. I don't want to go back there. I don't want to be that person again.
So, now, I need your help. If you can think of things that I can do, to help myself be motivated, to stay focused, tell me!!! I need help! I have been looking at blogs and others that have been successful. I try to walk in their footsteps. But anything you might have for me- I will take it.
I will try to keep everyone up to date with my journey. One step at a time. Time to take that step.
Rosie N. Grey
The N stands for "new lease on life".
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