We all make them. In my head, I know this. But I really, REALLY hate to make mistakes. I especially hate when my mistakes are caught by other people. I hate looking stupid, or feeling like a fool.
I always imagine the worst, that this mistake will get me fired, or that mistake will make people laugh out loud at me and call me dumb.
As soon as I know that I have made a mistake, I HAVE to fix it. It gnaws at me, until I can get to it. I have to work through it and figure out what went wrong. Honestly, most times I go into it believing that I am still right. But once I find out that I am not, I need to make it right. I need to make it better.
So, I have just spent 3 hours, sucking up my mistakes. Fixing them. Trying to make it right. Apologizing, and planning on how this will never happen again. It makes me feel better to do this, but I still feel horrible that it happened in the first place.
Yes, it's just work. No, it's really not a big deal. It's just another way to prove that I am not perfect. But I hate it. I really, really, REALLY do.
I will get over it. I know this. But I will never make this mistake again.
Rosie N. Grey
The N stands for "never again".