"Change, when it comes, cracks everything open."
Dorothy Allen

Sunday, March 4, 2012


That's all I am hoping for...breakthroughs.  I guess, when I think about it, it is a lot to ask.  A change from the ordinary, the day-to-day, from the way it's always been.

We are making headway (i.e. having a breakthrough) with the work on the bedroom.  For weeks now, I have been getting dressed from my dining room table.  Finally, we have our new wardrobes up and put together.  My clothes are hanging or folded or whatever and organized.  I have a bedside table (I have a bedside, and am not jammed against the wall, getting in and out of bed from the foot!) and an alarm clock again.  It is starting to look like a bedroom, and a nice one at that.  We need to finish the trim, and hang curtains, and then it is the fun, little decorating touches.  We still need to figure out what we are doing with the TV and the closet (wall shelves or a built in unit???) but it is functional and neat enough for now.

The rest of the house??  Not so much.  We rearranged the kids' rooms yesterday, to accommodate some of the furniture from our (Sebastian got the book case that Kit built for Geoff 15 years ago, and Sawyer got Sebastian's 2 book shelves.)   I steam cleaned both our bedroom and Sebastian's.  There is something strangely satisfying about dumping out buckets of black, dirty water, that was previously ground into your carpet.  Sawyer's room still needs to be done (desperately!) and I want to do the chairs in the living room.  The couches downstairs and the hallway need it, but they can wait. 
I need to give the house a good cleaning too, but also want a little rest.  We will see what wins out today.  I have a bridal shower this afternoon, so depending on how long that takes, it might just have to wait.

I am inspired by the changes in our room, and want to take another renovation.  Unfortunately, renovations cost money, so it might have to wait a bit.  But at least we are stepping forward, and making headway.  Breaking through, you might say.
Sebastian's stutter seems to be getting worse.  We have now signed on a speech therapist to work with him twice a month.  We have tons of homework to do, and I will admit, this past week, I have not been as diligent as I should have been.  Now that there is breathing room in our bedrooms and elsewhere, I plan on tackling this head on.  Smooth vs bumping talking, tracking the stutters, all that jazz.  And if I do, maybe we can see another breakthrough.

I have been working out.  I know, I know, it's crazy.  However, I found a plan, and for some crazy reason, it makes sense to me.  It gives me some freedom of choice, but also helps me understand what it is I should chose.  In this day and age, it is a little ridiculous that I am still relatively clueless when it comes to healthy choices, but I am, so this is very helpful.  It has been working, at least for the first 2 weeks.  And now, I am plateaued, and it stinks.  I work out 6 days a week, and haven't eaten bad shit in a month, and in 2 weeks, I had lost a total of half a pound.  REALLY?!?!?  Come on!!!  That is so incredibly unfair.

But today, the scale moved.  A little.  So, it's giving me hope that maybe a breakthrough is coming.  All this hard work can't be for nothing.  Something has to happen.  Something has to give. Please.

So, those are the breakthroughs I am hoping for.  Wishing for.  Working towards.  There is lots more I need to tackle- organization, work, taxes, yard, etc, etc, etc.  But this is a start.  These are the things that make me feel good.  So I will stick with them.

For now.

Rosie N. Grey
The N stands for "new lights at the end of old tunnels".

1 comment:

  1. Forget the weighing of yourself, you should measure all your body parts then check back in three months and see if the shape is changing. Muscle building skews weight.