I have decided to try, try again.
As many of you know (or maybe you don't and I just make wild assumptions!), we have Sebastian on a regimen of vitamins, supplements and homoeopathic remedies for his autism. We also have him gluten, casein and beef free. We started this in '09, so we have been at it for a while now.
Unfortunately, we have also been slack for a while now. And a re commitment is in order. This is what I mean by try again. We have been lax on the food (coating on his chicken fingers, pizza occasionally, gluten all over the damn place!) and his meds. He takes his Adderall religiously, but the vitamins, enzymes and all the rest fall by the wayside. Eventually, when I have more cash in hand, we will head back to the naturopath and get him reassessed, to see where he's at, and start fresh. Until then, I can do what I know will work.
I am recommitting to keeping Sebastian on his diet and his meds. He has been doing so well lately- see my previous post about his printing- that I worry I am sabotaging his progress by letting him eat toast and by skipping an enzyme here or there.
Geoff is home with him much more than I am (and trust me, that doesn't make me happy. Nothing against Geoff, I would just like to be home more!), and his commitment has slipped as well. So I think it is time for us to reassess our priorities and get our proverbial house in order.
My biggest issue is that it costs big money to eat gluten free and organic. That stuff don't come cheap. But, we don't have a choice. It has to happen. I need to be more vigilant and more creative. I need to bake more, and use my recipes. I need to stop thinking of it as an option and more as an absolute.
So, starting tomorrow, we are back on the right road. I am commited- writing it down here makes it public, which then makes me accountable. There is no backing down now.
What I need to remember is how the changes came about for Bastian. I try to think back, when we first pulled him off the dairy. How clear he got, within days. How magical it was. And that is completely the right word for it. It was like magic. Night and day. So worth it.
I need to think of that. I need to remember. I need to do it.
He is my son. He NEEDS me to be smart for him, dedicated for him. Strong for him. It's the least I can do.
So, wish me luck. I have travelled this route before. I know the way. One foot in front of the other, and off we go...
Rosie N. Grey
The N stands for "new lease on an old idea".